Unfortunate

Me and my best friend have had a falling out. She says that we should not be friends anymore because I am going to OU next year and she's going to EMU. She says we will never see eachother and there is no point in trying to remain friends when we will just fall apart anyways. I didn't know how to hadle myself yesterday. I cried for so long that I had to go to bed at 8:30, because I couldn't keep my eyes open anymore. Everyone says that she'll get over it; that she's stubborn. But no one knows her as well as I do. She has never been like this with me before. Ever. I don't know what to do, or say. But whatever I guess. I guess I have to get over it right??

I'm still grounded...until March 21. Woohoo. You know I'm thrilled. My birthday is in 16 days. And I get my tonsils taken out *finally* in 22 days. I'm so excited to have these things out of my mouth.

I'm so bored with school and ready to graduate. Can anyone make these next few months go any faster please???

-Tati

[40] words.

faces. blurred. heated lights.

bodies. unified. summer nights.

colors. movement. music plays.

heartfelt. emotion. she sways.

beat. rhythm. eyes closed.

feeling. lust. passion exposed.

pills. bottles. innocence lost.

blood. pain. skin embossed.

laughter. money. no receipts.

tears. shame. soiled sheets.

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he is the reason she breathes

and the reason that she falls

he builds her up

then tears down her walls

leaving her vulnerable

exposed to all impurites

he feeds on her weaknesses

adding to her insecurities

the bruises...they fade

lost memories on her face

look past the fake smile

the pain will take it's place

College....

So I think I finally have an idea of where I am going to school next year. Isn't that amazing!!! I am thrilled! I hate being grounded though and that is exactly what I am right now. Grounded. And my father really isn't speaking to me that much because he is sooooo disappointed in me. But we all know how that goes. Things are really just wishy washy in my life right now. I am really confused as to what I want and how I plan on getting it. But I know that it is just a phase and eventually that will pass right? Just like my dad's overbearing parenting will pass right? uggghhhh. HELP

Black/White

I am black and white.

Neither different, nor the same.

I am what you want, but nothing you need.

Having no difinitive name.

I am here and there.

Never wild, never tame.

I am everything, yet nothing.

The one thing that never came.

I am your gain and your loss.

Something forever to blame.

I am your pain and your pleasure.

The key player in the game.

I am black and white.

Forever different, and forever the same.

wow.

I had a crazy interesting weekend, that again has ended with me being grounded. Big surprise right? Well since this is my first blog I thought it would be appropriate to open it up with the drama of my life. How fun is that? I thought it was quite fun. Well my job at lifetime is still amazing and I love it. Worked 10 hours this weekend while juggling around cheerleading and getting in trouble. But what's new? Yeah, this weekend was odd and I wasted too much gas and time on people that don't mean anything! Love my life!! Can you sense the sarcasm??

-Tatiana