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slowly the sun is setting
on the open book of my life
no reasons for forced forgetting
no time for pain and strife
pages have been revised and edited
by lies my memory told me
though my heart is to be credited
and i still feel i'm running on empty
love is the drug i'm strung on
addicted to hallucinations of me and you
the high never lasted long
always short, sweet, and long overdue
look past the pages i've removed
our story lies in that black ink
excluding that which could have been improved
you never were my missing link

Sometimes when you win, you lose.

Almost every time you gain something...you lose something in return. Nothing good comes without something bad....most of the time. What can you do about it? Absolutely nothing. It's just the way the world works. No one is exempt from this rule of the world. It's how God meant for it to be.

justin timberlake concert was amazing. the rest of the weekend was pretty much just crap. me and my ex had another falling out last night. pretty much i hope he never calls me back again...ever. that would make my life so much easier. i'm so tired of him not bein able to make up his mind and then making it seem like i'm treating him so wrong. I mean what is it that i've done to him that is so wrong.? absolutely nothing.

I like this guy named justin now. he is amazing. funny. loud. cute. veryy veryy cute.... hopefully it lasts.....

so basically girls are the most dramatic creatures living. they're basically not happy unless they're upset about something or another. which is absolutely ridiculous. i wish that people would just forget about somethings....cuz some stuff is just not worth getting upset over and causing a big commotion over. it's completely a waste of time and energy.
i can't wait until my dad comes home tomorrow. this is the first time i have felt this way in a looooooong time. i usually hate it when my dad comes home....but i can't wait until tomorrow. the justin timberlake concert is on saturday. my friend amanda is coming down from rockford and she's goin to stay at my house friday and saturday night. on saturday we're goin to get our nails done and we're goin shopping!! yay. which i haven't done in a while. so i am for sure looking forward to that. sunday is our cheerleading banquet. i'm kind of sad it's all bout to be over. but thrilled at the same exact time. woohoo. i will finally have a life again. i'm so happy.

so me and jamar don't talk at all anymore. he is a mess and i can't take his dramatic bullcrap anymore. i wish that he would just go away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why can't he be a normal ex boyfriend? no he's got to be this flippin creep who has to be a complete ass. but w.e. me and maddy are friends again. how weird. her and i have a lot of catching up to do. i missed talking to her so much. guess that sounds so gay huh.....no homo tho. i'm bored out of my mind. JT concert sat. and i get ungrounded.

Well good for me i broke up with him, and we are completely done. No more wondering if we can make it and all that other stuff. I have two new guys that I am very interested in. They are both amazing and sweet.....for right now at least. I get to hang out with one of them today before I go to work and that is quite exciting for me. :-D